Mini Episode 4 Transcript

Mini Episode 4 - For Mark #1
By Lauren Shippen

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Sam: Hi Mark, it’s me. Sam. It’s Sam. I don’t know where you are or how you would ever hear this but I just- I miss talking to you. I miss you. Did you ever watch Gilmore Girls? Me and mom used to watch it all the time and then after she- well, I kept watching and I would, you know,  go to her grave and tell her what happened in the last season. Probably yet another reason why I didn’t have any friends in high school.

Anyway, there’s this one season where Lorelei and Rory get into a fight and they don’t talk for months. And Lorelei keeps thinking of stuff that she wants to tell Rory but she can’t so she just writes them all down on scraps of paper and puts them in a hat box. And when she and Rory do make up, she can’t remember what half the notes are referring to because her handwriting is messy and all the references make no sense out of context.

Anyway, I keep thinking of things I want to say to you. Or I’ll see something on the side of the road that I think you’d want to take a picture of and I can’t take a picture myself or write it down because I have to keep my hands on the wheel-

Oh yeah, I’m driving. I bought a car. And I’m driving it. Sorry, I know you wanted to teach me but I think it was time for me to take matters into my own hands. I sat around my apartment for almost two weeks after- I thought if I kept still, if I stayed inside, I wouldn’t keep going back to 1810 but it didn’t work. No matter what I did, I kept going back and you weren’t there. God, I didn’t think it was possible for me to find another level of loneliness but-

I’m sorry. I’m not trying to make you feel bad. It isn’t your fault. It’s mine. And your sister’s and Damien’s. You shouldn’t trust him. I don’t know where you guys are but you shouldn’t trust him. You’re a smart guy. You’ll figure that out.

So anyway, a few weeks ago I quit my job and bought this car and got my license and now I’m driving. I’m looking for you. I know it’s a long shot, I have so little to go on but Dr. Bri- Joan gave me a picture of you and all the info on the van and, I mean, it’s not like we can get the police involved so I’m doing it. I'm going from town to town, showing your picture, asking if anyone’s seen you. The chances I find you are not good, I realize that, and driving is still terrifying but it beats sitting at home feeling sorry for myself.

So anyway, I’ve been listening to podcasts on my drive. I bought one of those fancy new cars that has wifi in it - oh yeah, that’s a thing now, that they do with cars, you probably didn’t know that - anyway so I’ve been listening to tons of stuff to try and keep my mind off things. And I started to listen to this fiction one, Alice Isn’t Dead. It’s a little scary for me. I can only really listen in the middle of the day but basically it’s about this truck driver who’s looking for her missing wife. And the whole time she’s driving, she’s talking to her wife like she’s there. And I just thought that it’d be nice - to say the stuff to you that I wanted to say to you, instead of writing it down, and then- and then, I don't know, maybe when we see each other again, you can listen and it will be like we took the road trip together after all. 

God, is that dumb? It sounds really dumb, right? Well, it’s something to do, I guess. Alright, I’ve got to pull off the highway now and get gas. But, I’ll talk to you soon? Or, I mean, I'll record more of these and you'll listen someday? No, you know what? I'll talk to you soon.